I grew up in a little suburb of Dunedin called Ravensbourne.
The greatest discovery of my life, was the love of God expressed through the suffering of his servant son, Yeshua HaMashiach. There is nothing else in this created universe to compared to this condescension of God's grace and unmerited favour to our sinful race.I did not come from a Christian family though there were relatives on my mothers side of the family that were. My father was a baby boomer, a 60's revolutionary, a communist. And sadly I remember that he mocked people with any sort of Christian values. And there was a great deal of spiritual darkness in our house because of this.
How wonderful then to find out that there really is purpose and meaning to life. And what a revelation to my soul that God was real and that he sent his Son to die in my stead, an offering for my sin. I discovered this well of living water at an Elim Pentecostal Church. I had just turned 18 years of age, I got baptised a few months later. Praise YHVH. Thank you Yeshua, my Saviour. That was half a life time ago now. A lot of living water has gone under the bridge since then!
After that wonderful new beginning I came to a time in my life when I doubted my faith because of the way believers treated me and because God didn't give me a wife, I couldn't find one that was right for me. Things worked out for others but not for me. I found it difficult to discern God's hand in my life.I wanted to serve the Lord, but when I looked into missionary work I thought how boring. After completing my New Zealand Certificate in Engineering in 1993 I went overseas to Israel for 3 weeks. It was my first overseas trip. I had been told by Christian little old ladies that they could really feel the presence of God there. Well I went there and didn't experience anything of the sort. I was disappointed. But I did discover there was a bright shiny world outside to explore. I wanted to travel more.
Without going into more details I did more travelling, slipped away from God, created my own software business, failed, started again, succeeded a bit with the help of a Christian friend. And after 7 or 8 years came back to the Lord. Why? A miracle of the heart. Through our business I began to notice the hand of God sustaining us, not making too much money but getting by. And one day I just decided to trust God again. I had been going back to church for a year or two but
I had one foot on either side of the fence. I wasn't fully trusting God. Then one day sitting in front of the computer I simply decided that God was real and that I was going to trust in him. And it was like there was a spiritual light-bulb turning on inside me. I had come home!
That was towards the end of 2002 and George W. Bush was heading for Iraq and I thought going to the land of Babylon had prophetic meaning. I could see that it was really about the New World Order (NWO) reshaping the middle east. They were not there to bring democracy. They were there to prepare the way for the creation of last days Babylon the seat of the Anti-Christ.
I felt a strong desire to return to Israel. I thought that that would be the one safe place when the NWO takes over. I then thought I should study Hebrew, the language of Israel and bought a set of modern Hebrew tapes and a biblical Hebrew text book. I tried the tapes but found it utterly boring. But the feeling to study Hebrew just wouldn't let me go. I was bored with the business and things were winding down and contracts drying up. Finally in February 2003 I decided to study Biblical Hebrew, I plowed through the book and after 2 months had a rough idea of the grammar and just started reading the bible slowly in Hebrew.
My life was falling apart at this time, Satan was contending with me. The Lord spoke to me powerfully from the scriptures concerning this. A scripture jumped out at me. After a year of hell I went for a second trip to Israel, I came with virtually no money and stayed for 6 months! I continued reading the bible slowly in Hebrew, slowly increasing my vocabulary. After returning I stayed in New Zealand another 6 months, still studying madly and they went to Melbourne Australia. I went to a Jewish Messianic Fellowship, met some good people there, but was bitterly disappointed with their lawlessness and wickedness I detected in their leadership.
Anyway I wont go on except that since then I have grappled with and understood how the New and Old Testament fit together and how the Torah does not conflict with the writings of Paul. Paul was dealing with peoples hearts and contending with their motivations and why they did things and what they put their trust in. Later while in Melbourne, that same year, 2005 God gave me a revelation of the Lost tribes. It felt like a download. Like someone just gave me a whole lot of knowledge. Now all I had to do was find it in scripture. And it was everywhere. How could I have been so blind!
Hebrew, the Torah and the knowledge of the Lost tribes have really revolutionized my understanding of who I am. But they have also set me apart and made life a lot harder also. I was amazed that people were not interested in what I had to say. It baffled me that people didn't care.
Although I talk a lot about the regathering of the 10 Lost Tribes of the House of Israel it is not what interests me the most. Messiah interests me the most. Even though my feet are upon the good earth, my Head is in heaven. What interests me is the Heavenlies. My focus is really on Yeshua and out destiny with Him as the Sons of God (B'nei Elohim). It is the highest of callings and I want to know more, I want to be like Enoch, who walked with God and was no more for the Lord took him. I long to return to the Heavenly Jerusalem, and to our King seated there. And I long for the establishment of His Kingdom, upon his Earthly footstool. Even so come Lord Yeshua.
All Hail King Yeshua!
The Word of God.
The Aleph and the Tav.
The word that came forth from the father and formed the universe, the heavens and the earth.
All glory to Yeshua the Son of the Living God.
Fully Man and fully God.
A stumbling stone to both Houses, and a Rock of Offense.
A man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.
Who before Abraham was, the I am!
Who as pre-incarnate Messiah, as the firstborn 'Angel of the Lord' struggled with Jacob.
Who as the Angel appeared to Moses as the Mediator of the Covenant.
Who led Israel as a Pillar of cloud by day and Pillar of Fire by night.
Praise be to His Glorious Name.
May all nature bow before Him.
May His enemies bow before him and confess "HE IS LORD"!
מִ֥י כָּמֹ֖כָה נֶאְדָּ֣ר בַּקֹּ֑דֶשׁ
נֹורָ֥א תְהִלֹּ֖ת עֹ֥שֵׂה פֶֽלֶא׃